The Celebreality Interview – Daisy

“I’d rather have a broken arm than a broken heart,” says the girl for whom becoming Bret’s rock of love was not meant to be. In our epic chat, Daisy dishes the dirt unlike any girl who came before her. Sex on set, plastic surgery, reconciling social anxiety with stripping, living with Charles and what she really thinks of Ambre are among the subjects discussed. Daisy often talked about opening herself up for Bret, but from our talk, it’s clear that open is the only way she can be. She’s so open, she’s like flower, and that’s exactly the point.

At this point, about five months after filming, are you over Bret?

After I came off the show, it was really hard. It took me a good two months to recover from everything. Not just Bret, but everything that happened. I kept replaying it in my head, wondering what I did wrong and thinking why. I felt like if he didn’t like me, if he wasn’t making the connection with me, I almost wish he would have eliminated me a long time ago. Am I over him? Yeah. Every time I see him, it brings back those really emotional feelings. But I don’t think that Bret understood that there’s not going to be any type of physical relationship with him unless we’re in a relationship. That’s just how I work. He’s a rock star and used to having free relationships and sexual contact with girls, but I am not that girl.

At the same time, it was pretty open that you did have sex with him on the show.

That’s the thing, though. I fully thought that I was working toward us having a relationship. If I didn’t think that there was a strong possibility that I would walk away having a relationship with this person, then absolutely not. I would never, ever, ever have done that. Sex to me is a very emotional thing. I connect with someone like that. Whenever that happens, I become attached to them. I’m emotional, and I can’t just not have feelings for them after that.

How did sex in the house work logistically?

We weren’t being filmed. We actually didn’t officially have sex until the very last night, and that’s what hurts my feelings. Of course, Heather just wants to make me look bad and make up s*** or whatever the f*** her problem is. But the fact of the matter is that we did not have sex until the end. During the last elimination, he knew that I was very emotionally attached to him because we’d been physical, and I just thought it was really uncool. It was very selfish almost in a way. But before that, we had intimate…moments at times. And the cameras just went away.

I didn’t know if you had to shove yourselves into a closet because of the cameras or whatever.

Well, yeah. Pretty much.

In an online extra posted with you, Stephanie and Bret…

…Yeah, when he says we had sex in Vegas. We did not have sex. That pissed me off. I was going to make that comment to Stephanie about not being a promiscuous person, because I’m not. I come across like I’m wild, and I am, but there’s also a huge part of me that’s super f***ing prude and conservative. I don’t throw my heart around like that. I don’t give out my emotions like that because I don’t want to be hurt. Nothing hurts more to me than a broken heart. That’s the worst thing to me. I’d rather have a broken arm than a broken heart. So it upset me when he said that. We had sexual contact, yes. But intercourse? No. I feel like I’m the president right now. “I did not have intercourse!” (Laughs.) I don’t know why I didn’t say anything then. I guess I just wasn’t paying attention.

Is that why you took it so hard when Ambre and Bret were talking about you leading with your sexuality?

If that’s what I do, that’s what I do. But I don’t do that intentionally. You’re either sexy or not, and that’s the bottom line. Apparently, much to my surprise, that’s what I am. And I’m comfortable with my sexuality, and I’m comfortable with my body, but that doesn’t mean I use that in any way. And if I do, it’s not consciously. I’m not that person. In fact, I’m a really shy individual that has a really hard time communicating and being in crowds and going up to people and talking to them. It’s just not me. If people don’t believe it, I don’t really care. I don’t have anything to prove to anyone. I know who I am and I know who I’m not.

You got into it really deep with Ambre in Cancun. What are your thoughts on her at this point?

Watching the show and seeing how she behaved during moments when I wasn’t around sort of surprised me. She went from the girl who was going to go home on the first day to being the back-stabbing, I’m-gonna-throw-you-under-the-bus-and-do-whatever-I-have-to-do-to-win girl. I’m not that person. I had one issue with one person. That was Kristy Joe, because she was married. The only time I had issues with anyone or threw anyone under the bus or did anything mean was after everyone attacked me. I felt like I had the right to then not be their friend. Ambre was upset about this: “Well, I don’t understand you’re being different now.” Dude! You attacked me in Vegas. You’ve called me a stripper. You’re just being a f***ing bitch. I don’t have to be your friend. We don’t have to get along. Ambre was the girl who’d yell at everyone, but then five minutes later, she’d feel bad about that. I thought that was really lame. It’s like, if you feel a certain way, stand by it. The whole thing where she lied about her age and then posted a thing saying that she didn’t lie about it, that her voice was dubbed, it’s like man, come on. Own up to it. If you lied about your age, you lied about your age. I think that’s really lame. At times, she was a nice person, but I think she was just in it to win it and not because she wanted to be with Bret. I watched her audition tape and she said that she hoped the rock star was Tommy Lee because she wanted to see if his penis was really as big as it was. I had already fallen in love with Bret’s character from the first season. You can’t just come on this show, like, “I’m gonna fall in love with Bret!” That’s so unrealistic.

You also got into it with Destiney. Where are you with her?

Me and Destiney clicked immediately because we’re alike. We’re rocker chicks, we know the dudes in the band and whatever. We’re wild and everything. It was really lame that she did that in Vegas and it really hurt my feelings. I knew things about Destiney that I didn’t reveal because I didn’t think it was any of my business. I didn’t think I needed to expose things and tear her down. I thought it was really lame that she attacked me and was ultimately weak because of Heather. In my opinion, she wanted to be Heather or something. We sort of made amends at the reunion show [which taped two weeks ago], and then the next night we went out and partied all night long. Who knows if it’s all good? But I tried, and I wrote her recently to say that I hoped that we could be friends.

Why did you get mad at Ambre for calling you a stripper? Are you a stripper or not?

I am a dancer. I think that it was a cheap shot. I’m not going to apologize for who I am. I’m a dancer, I’m an entertainer, I’m a musician. I’m many things that have to do with entertainment. When she said in Vegas, “Are you looking for a way out?” it was like absolutely f***ing not. I have a kick-ass life. A way out of what? I’m really happy with my life. It’s exactly on track to the things and the goals that I want. She’s the TV host that has to lie about her age with a resume as long as god and no one knows who she is. She made this comment to me: “Well, I live paycheck to paycheck.” Well, Ambre, if you live paycheck to paycheck, are you the one that’s looking for a way out? I don’t live paycheck to paycheck, dude. I go to work once a week and make loads of money. The rest of the time, I’m focused on doing what I want to do with my life. So I think she should have been the one questioned about all that stuff.

How is it dancing now that you’ve been on the show?

I have been trying to not dance at all. And it’s not because I don’t like it. I do. And the places that I dance are like my family. Those people have supported me more than anyone ever. They are so proud of me that I’m on the show. I do have social anxiety, so when I do go there, it’s awkward. I’m an entertainer and I’m damn f***ing good at it. But it is awkward when people come in. I’m in a different state of mind at work. I’m there to make money and I’m there to play the game or whatever, of that business. When people recognize me, I think it’s awesome. I love it. But at the same time, it’s weird. I don’t want people to look at me, like, “Oh she’s just a stripper.” Because I’m not. I’m a dancer and there’s a lot more to me than that.

Where are you with Charles?

We do not live together. We were in the process of moving out and figuring out what was going to happen during the time of the show. But I put my life on hold to be on this show and meet Bret and start some sort of connection with him. I thought it was unfair of Bret. There’s more to my life and there’s more to Charles’ life than just sex. I thought it was so lame that everybody was so upset that, basically, I have a roommate who’s a male. We were in an awkward situation because we both travel a lot and we were both really busy. I’m not a millionaire. Moving takes a lot of time and energy and money. At that moment, everything was coming to this big change in my life that equaled up to this show. The bottom line is that when Charles walked into the house, I could have said, “We don’t live together.” And Charles would have backed me up. But I didn’t. I chose to open up to Bret. I’m a really honest and open person and it’s a good thing, but at the same time, it’s a bad thing.

How open are you about plastic surgery?

Obviously, I’ve had my boobs done. I’m 5’3”, 100 lbs. I had big boobs to begin with, but I got those boobs because I wanted them. If anyone has a problem with it, f*** off. Apparently, not everyone in this country has a problem with it because it’s one of the No. 1 surgeries in America and over 300,000 people get plastic surgery a year. Yes, I’ve had some work done on my nose. And as far as my lips go, I just want to clarify that they are 100 percent real. I’m Spanish and German. I have big features. I have pictures from long, long ago that will show everyone that I have naturally big lips and if you don’t like it, f*** off. I don’t care. Don’t look at me then, you know?

What’s coming up for you career-wise?

I’m in the process in setting up a store for my site, which isn’t officially up yet. You’ll be able to purchase my EP and get pictures or whatever. I’m in talks with someone in the music industry, and I don’t want to say his name because I’m not sure if I should. But we’re going to collaborate and I’m really excited about that. We’ll see where that goes. I’m just going to keep writing. “Save Me” and “Pretty Messed Up” are my feelings about what had happened on Rock of Love. I felt really inspired after my time on the show. That’s pretty much my focus now, writing music. I also want to write a tell-all about my time on Rock of Love. That’s my goal. There’s so much s***. And not anything about 51 Minds or VH1, but just the show and my experience and funny stuff and bad stuff and just the whole 9. I’m working on a clothing line, too. I do have another project that involves TV, but I don’t know if I can talk about that.

What did you think of your portrayal on the show?

A lot of what was on was edited to make me look a certain way, and that’s fine. It is what it is. But there’s so much more to me than a lot of people will ever know, or whatever people will want to know. People want to see me as sort of this dumb, ditzy, plastic surgery blonde. And that’s fine, but at the end of the day, I’m a human being, I do have intelligence and I am doing s***. Sorry if you confuse funny with being stupid. That’s just whatever, you know? I’m fun and I’m having fun and I don’t take everything too seriously.

Ambre and Bret: will they last?

Man. In my opinion, I don’t think so. I don’t think Ambre is aware of who Bret truly is. He is a rock star. He’s been a rock star for 20-plus years. He’s never going to change his ways. He’s never been married for a reason. He is a fun, awesome, great guy. He’s so amazing. He’s really kind-hearted. He’s been in this industry for a long time and he’s used to having whatever he wants, whenever he wants, however he wants it. I could be wrong. Maybe he’s at a point in his life where he wants something serious. I hope it does work out, but in my opinion, Ambre’s not ready to handle that sort of thing.

Keep up with Daisy via her MySpace and her FamousVH1Friends.com profile.