“The fact that [Bret]‘s a rock star doesn’t hurt. Isn’t that why everybody’s there? Who would go out with Bret the trash man?” Beverly tells us in the interview below. She gave it to Bret straight during her time on Rock of Love Bus, and she was no different during our chat with her. Below, she cuts the crap and talks about seeing Taya at an Atlanta strip club, her real feelings on Ashley, whether she was disappointed after finally meeting the man she’d idolized, why Bret is in no position to diagnose her as suffering from a “second childhood,” and what her kids think of all this.
You stuck out from the beginning: instead of dressing up (or dressing down, really) like the other girls during the wedding challenge, you wore motocross gear. Was that strategy?
I know he’s into motocross, so I thought it would be a good gift for him. And as far as dressing up, I really did not want to get dressed up like a complete hoe. There was enough of that on the show. I figured I’d try to be a little different and stand out somehow, since I obviously couldn’t stand out with blonde hair and big boobs.
You did dress a little more sexily as time went on. Was that sexy progression a conscious thing?
I’m not as big of a tomboy as everyone seems to think. I live in Georgia, so I don’t go around dressed like Farrah and Ashely. I’m more of a jeans-and-t-shirt kinda girl. But yeah, I definitely needed to do something so that Bret didn’t think I was only a tomboy. I wanted him to see that I could clean up all right.
How about your association with Farrah and Ashley? In the beginning, you and Ashley were at each other’s throats, but you seemed to warm up to each other as time went on.
Yeah, after we got over the whole Beverly’s-a-dude-thing. We were all living together, so I just had to make the best of everything. If we continue to hated each other, it was going to be more stressful. I’m a pretty easy-going person and I like most people, so I guess I just had to make the best out of a bad situation.
Did you develop any affection for them, or was it just a coping mechanism?
I liked Farrah from the beginning. I think she’s an awesome person. Her comments about people were made in a more joking, funny manner, whereas Ashley was just cruel and mean-spirited. I liked Farrah, but Ashley was more of a toleration.
What about the “Boots” nickname? Did you mind it?
I’m OK with that nickname. I’ve been called worse! I like my boots, what can I say?
What did you think of Bret’s assessment of your participation on the show being sort of a second-childhood for you since you had kids so early?
I can see how people might think that, but as far as Bret goes, I don’t know where he gets off thinking he has all this insight into me. It really didn’t seem like he took the time to get to know me very well at all. If he had, we might have had more of a connection than he did. He went in there saying he wanted a different kind of girl, someone that he could bring home to his kids, but then who does he seem to be digging the most? Ashley. It seems like he reverted back to the same old thing that it seems like he should be tired of after 20 some odd years in the business.
You seem disappointed by the way it played out. Did you find that cliché, “Never meet your idols,” to be true?
I wasn’t disappointed by Bret. I think he’s a great guy. I think he’s as real and genuine as he can be after all those years in the business. I think the situation was what was disappointing. None of us got the amount of time with him that we should have in order to form a relationship. It wasn’t like regular dating at all. But as a person, I think he’s a good guy. I don’t think he knows what he wants, but he’s a good person.
It seemed like when you were having him sign stuff when you were in the limo with him and Taya after his concert, you had already packed it in. Did you know it was your time to go?
I was hoping that it wasn’t, but at that point I had realized there wasn’t a real connection. I was pretty sure he was feeling that, too. We hadn’t had that many conversations, in which we could really get to know one another. It seemed like half the time he was around me, I was drinking heavily. He saw that side of me more than anything else, which is a shame, because that’s obviously not all there is to me. As far as Taya thinking that me getting autographs is stupid and ridiculous, f*** her. Why didn’t she want something like that for her kid? I’m sure as hell glad that I did it now. My kids think it’s great.
Is that your general attitude on Taya: f*** her?
Oh yeah. My general opinion on her is probably worse than that. I can’t stand her. She’s one of the most fake, disgusting people I’ve ever met. The worst part about it is that she wants everyone to think she’s this refined, classy human being and I think she belongs in the gutter.
You have genuine malice for her?
Yeah. I can’t stand the fact that she is basically a whore for money: she’s in Penthouse, she obviously has been a stripper and is still a stripper because I went and saw her in Atlanta after the show. And then she wants to sit there and say, “I’m not a stripper, I’m a burlesque dancer.” Or, “I’m not hanging upside down from poles at an airport strip club.” It’s like, OK, Taya, as long as the strip club is not at the airport, you’re not a stripper? I hate that she’s sitting there with her pinky up while she drinks, like she’s some classy role model. Give me a break! She wants to look down at everybody else, like, “I’m so proud of what I’ve accomplished.” Well, that’s awesome. Be proud of what you’ve done. I don’t care that you are a stripper or that you are in Penthouse, but don’t act like you’re not that type of person or you’re something else. Just admit that that’s what you like to do and that you like doing it. And her mothering thing got so old with me. You don’t even see the half of what she does. She wanted to be there for everybody, but not really. She just wanted to come off that way. I just can’t stand someone trying to mother me. I’m a grown-ass woman. I don’t need someone to hold my hand when I’m upset and pissed off about something. I don’t need you to rub my hair while I’m sleeping. Go twist your own freaking hair.
When you saw her in Atlanta, was that just for laughs?
Oh yeah. Really, I wanted to go and throw stuff at her and make her fall on her face. My friends and I went there. She had her little VIP section where she was signing stuff and she was sitting there all by herself and gave me a big hug, of course, because that’s how Taya is. I’m looking at her like, “OK, do you not remember how we don’t like each other?” But whatever, she was nice to me and I was nice to her and she asked us to sit up in her section. It was pretty sad, because she was celebrating her 30th birthday there and me and my friends were the only people up there with her. I ended up telling her, “I came in here wanting to throw something at you to make you fall on your face,” and she looked at me, like, “What?” I said, “You’re being nice now, but I don’t like you. I don’t like the way you are. I don’t like the way you never shut up.” She didn’t know how to take it. She just kinda sat there. I’m like, “Sorry. Thanks for the free drinks, though!” She just has no idea. She has no idea why people wouldn’t like her, why she rubs people the wrong way. She’s completely blind. It’s just like when she got upset that we didn’t cheer for her when she won the songwriting challenge. It’s like, why do you care if any of us are friends with you? We’re here fighting for a guy. None of us are supposed to be friends. If you think somebody’s your friend on the show, you’re wrong. They’re just using you because you’re an idiot.
You don’t go on reality TV to make friends! What about the notion that you fell in love with Bret the rock star instead of Bret the person.
Well, I didn’t fall in love with Bret the person. I don’t know how you could in that amount of time. But the fact that he’s a rock star doesn’t hurt. Isn’t that why everybody’s there? Who would go out with Bret the trash man? He has great eyes, but come on, you gotta draw the line somewhere.
Are your kids fans of his?
My older two knew some of his songs, but they’re obviously younger so they didn’t grow up with Poison or whatever. But when I knew I was going on the show, I’d play some of his songs to them. My oldest, my son, told me he’d seen him on Cribs, so it really sucks that I didn’t end up getting something signed for him. I’m going to have to bring something to the reunion and rub it in Taya’s face.
Do your kids watch the show?
Yeah. Me and my ex-husband usually screen it first, but it’s edited for TV, obviously. If I wasn’t on the show, it’s not something I’d let them watch.
What’s their take on it? Do they enjoy it?
Yeah. A lot of stuff goes over the younger ones’ heads. Well, I hope it does, anyway. But they think it’s cool. They ask questions sometimes like, “Why does she do that?” Sometimes, I just don’t have an answer. I’m like, “I don’t know. But you shouldn’t do that.” But they enjoy it, because they enjoy watching their mom on TV. Their friends talk about it so they think that’s cool. I’m glad I didn’t end up breaking down and listening to what everyone was telling me to do.
I wasn’t able to reach Kami or Ashley: can you shed any light on what happened that night in Bret’s bus that made Kami quit the show?
Bret was getting pretty hot and heavy with Ashley. I think they had already gone down that road before, when she spent the night on the bus with him. I don’t know why Kami came back in running her mouth about what happened on the bus wish Ashley, because Kami was just as willing to be there and do that. She partook in some of the events as well. When she was talking about how disgusted she was, it was like, “OK, I just sat there and watched you too.” But I wasn’t going to open my mouth and start spreading crap about what went down. I didn’t think it was my place.
Do you have any regrets?
Not really. The only thing is drinking so much and having the kids see that part of it. Besides that, I was pretty much myself the whole time, or a drunker version of myself. I stayed true to what I believed and I didn’t really let people talk me into doing what they thought I should be doing.
It was pretty hilarious that you called Bret out for having stubble.
I saw that and I was like, “I don’t even remember that!” People were shocked that I said that, but it’s like, you know what? I’m the only person saying what I think and unafraid to speak my mind with him. Everyone else walks on eggshells and says what they think he wants to hear. Whatever. That’s not me. I’m not going to pretend to be one way, and then when this whole thing ends and he picks me, he finds out I’m not like that at all. What good does that do?
Are you glad you did the show?
Oh yeah. I had a great time. It was definitely the experience of a lifetime. I’d do it all over with the same result.
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