For the second time in a row, Gia’s drunken behavior got her bounced from a reality show on its first episode. But she’s learned from the experience! Below, she talks about how horrifying it was to watch herself in such an out-of-control state, the changes she’s made in her life since, and why she wants another crack at reality TV.
What are your thoughts on what happened?
I think it was terrible. It was awful. At least this time, I wasn’t the very first person to go. I hadn’t drank for four months prior to that. I was completely sober. A little bit after Rock of Love, I quit drinking completely. Then I went on Charm School and they were expecting the wild Gia and I hadn’t eaten that much that day. I just kept drinking and drinking.
Yeah, you said that you weren’t planning on drinking.
Yeah. You go to Charm School to change and be a better person and act like a lady. And I just ended up drinking and it ruined everything once again.
Was it tough to watch?
It really was. I was in tears after I watched it.
Did you remember a lot of what happened?
No, not until I saw it on TV. I was in a blackout, and I didn’t have a recollection of pretty much 89 percent of what happened.
Do you regret specific incidents? Pulling Ashley down to the carpet, for example?
Yeah. I completely regret that. That was so stupid. It’s so embarrassing. If I was in my right mind, I would have known. When I put her name down, I thought it meant something completely different.
I could kind of see your drunk logic, though: you wanted a friend.
I didn’t know what was going on. It made me look horrible. I talked to Ashley about that after I watched it, and she said, “Don’t worry about it, girl. I still love you.”
What about your post-elimination tantrum?
I didn’t remember that, either. I was so sloppy. It was so upsetting. It made me break down just watching that. I don’t want anyone to see me like that and doing it on television just made it worse. Nothing I said made sense.
You said, “I’m prettier than all those other f***ing bitches.”
I think I said that because I came back all this way out to do another show, I had pulled myself together, I had some sobriety time under my belt, and I just felt so well put together. I couldn’t believe it was happening, and I just said whatever mean comment I could say.
It seems like it was out of frustration, which was understandable.
I felt set up, too. They send the ladies to Charm School. They want to curtail their drinking. They want to stop this and that, and yet there’s a full bar poolside. It doesn’t make much sense to me. I could see if it happened one night and they kept you around to let you reflect on what happened, but it didn’t make sense to me to kick me off there just like that. Fans have written to me, like, “That’s bulls***. That’s why they’re sending you there.” Also, people were confused because they saw me say I stopped drinking on the Rock of Love Bus reunion, and then this aired after, even though it was shot before. There’s so much more to me than drinking and I’m mad that I fed into it, that I let this happen. I feel like I could have stayed on there if I’d written Brittaney Starr’s name down. Something.
So even reflecting on this while sober, you think Brittaney should have gone before you?
Hell yeah. Eliminating me broke the Blondourage up and it didn’t give me the chance to change or show my true colors. I’m really capable of being a nice young lady instead of a drunken hot mess.
Yeah, once again, you only got one episode to rep for the Blondourage.
We all party it up, but it’s always too much for one episode. You get so excited and caught up in the moment. I’m so little, I’m the tiniest one out of everyone there. I’m like 4’11”, 100 lbs., and putting away all those shots just doesn’t mesh well with me. It completely ruined everything. I regret it and I wish I could go back.
I thought it was clever when you referred to you guys as the “rubbing alcoholics.”
Yes! I did have my moments where I wasn’t completely sloshed, where maybe a few things made sense.
The sugar daddies thing was also amusing.
But see, that’s another thing. It’s like, OK, I’m no longer stripping, so now there’s sugar daddies, but I would have wanted to change that, too. I wanted to learn how to be a better person. But trust me, I have become a better person since Charm School.
If you got sober based on what happened on Rock of Love, and then you did it again based on Charm School, that’s a huge thing to take from reality TV, right?
When I was watching it, I just told myself, “Look at this as a positive experience to help you stay sober and to keep those changes in your life.” It’s something to reflect on. I do not ever want to be that person again. I’m a mess when I drink like that.
Dr. Drew and I have talked about how showing addicts their inebriated behavior can be quite helpful.
A lot of people don’t change because what happens is you forget about what happened or you drink even more to forget. You don’t get to reflect on it or even see it.
Ironically, you could be one of the girls to benefit the most from Charm School.
I’m assuming that most of the girls didn’t change. I assume, also, that they can keep a handle on the alcohol and know when to party and when not to.
So based on these two experiences, do you still want to do more reality TV?
I would love to do more now that I have a better handle on my life and don’t drink anymore. I’m really sad that a lot of my fans that have faith in me becoming a better person had to see me like that. And people who were just seeing me for the first time and who were like, “Goodness. Who is this girl?” I’m really not a mess. I would love the chance to shine through as the good person that I am, and not just an alcoholic.
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