In Blake’s teary exit interview on the most recent episode of I Want To Work for Diddy 2, she said it wasn’t her time to go. Below she talks about whether she still feels that way, and how she feels about Diddy after getting the boot.
How was your time on the show?
It was amazing. It was a little short lived, but it was awesome. Definitely one of the best experiences I’ve ever had.
You seemed pretty upset when you were eliminated. How do you feel about it now?
With hindsight being 20/20, you look back and think, “What could I have said to have made a difference?” And to know that I had such a lasting impressing in the first interview, and then a few challenges later I’m eliminated and it really wasn’t even just. It was just that I stood up for Ebony, and then John brought us both down. It just wasn’t my time. I feel like I was dealt a bad hand. At this point, I’m kind of over it, but I need to be given a second chance. I know this is going on right now, but something needs to happen at some point, because if I made that much of an impression, where’s my second opportunity?
The panel said that you were lacking in humility. Did you feel that was justified or an adequate explanation?
Hell no. Anybody that knows me knows that that’s certainly not the case. Maybe they wanted more of a story, which is kind of what it looks like. I love Ebony to death. We just had an event in LA, and we had another event in Miami. She and I definitely clicked, which is another reason why it was very hard. It’s set up so they kind of want you to throw out everything except the kitchen sink. And I have ethics, I have morals, and I think that you should have to do that in order to be recognized for a position, especially for Mr. Combs. I believe that if you’re running the show, you should recognize when something goes wrong. That’s why I have faith that something great is going to come because of this, because it’s not like I didn’t do anything, or I didn’t show up in any of the challenges, or I was an evil person, or was a turncoat or anything like that.
And you brought in money, too. You and Jen were the only ones to raise money for your team in this week’s challenge.
Exactly. So it’s just like, “Are you serious?” But what can you do? I mean, the show isn’t based around me, it’s based around Mr. Combs. I’m really just waiting for a phone call. I’m waiting for a, “We made a mistake.”
What was it like just standing there when Ebony and John were going at it? At one point you took a step back.
I was just like, “S***, I’m in the middle of it.” When you’re that close it’s like, “I’m getting a little saliva. I’m getting it in my ear.” And she’s not even talking to me. In all actuality, John did kind of deserve what he got.
What did you think about the whole racism/chauvinist debate regarding John?
I think that John has a problem with expressing himself verbally. I do think that he means well, but sometimes he doesn’t choose the right words. I mean, I think that’s more of it than anything because we never really had an issue with John. From the first few challenges things were great, and then the pressure kind of came and John cracked. Obviously he drank a little bit, and that definitely was not the right thing to do, because he was just totally beside himself. But when you see Ebony and John now, we’re all like one big family. So obviously she’s over it, he’s over it, and they’ve moved on. But if anything, John really just needs to stick his foot in his mouth and probably not say anything at all.
Does the fact that you’re sort of holding out for a phone call that mean that you haven’t found “the place” that you were referencing in your exit interview?
I’m doing a few little things here and there. I was freelancing artist management and PR. Like I said, I love the entertainment industry and everything that it has to offer, and I love the business side, but I think one thing that I have noticed is that I wouldn’t mind being in front of the camera more. I kind of have a different outlook on what it is I’m supposed to be doing, or what my destiny is. I’m not going to wait around for s***. I’m going to create a spectacle and continue to market myself and get involved as much as I can on various levels, because I’m passionate about various things in the industry. At the same time, I do deep down feel that I would feel a little bit better if I was recognized for the impact that I did have.
Any thoughts on Diddy?
I loved Mr. Combs. I’ve always admired his work ethic. I’ve always followed Bad Boy, and other artists as well. I think, like anybody else, there’s a side of him you don’t want to piss him off and you don’t want to upset him. But that’s not to say that you should brown-nose anybody because I obviously don’t do that either. I respect him, and he’s in a position where he can act crazy on TV if he wants to. He brought himself to this level that kind of allows him to wiggle around. He just does whatever. So I admire it and I strive to be like that. I would like to be like the female Diddy.