In the Feb. 22 issue of People (on newsstands now), Megan Hauserman fills in some details of the Ryan Jenkins tragedy, and her contact with the Megan Wants a Millionaire contestant between the filming of the show and the murder/suicide. Among the things touched on: her deep infatuation with him (“I was smitten, which isn’t like me because I never like anybody”), her shock at finding out about his engagement to Jasmine Fiore and his resulting despair. It’s a sobering read, especially during its conclusion when Megan talks about making sense of the tragedy and ensuing fallout:
Most of the time, I just cried, feeling terrible for Jasmine and her family, thinking how the two of us could have been interchangeable. When VH1 called to say my show had been canceled, I understood why. Because of all this, people have a negative association with me. Now I’m rethinking my whole life, trying to figure out where to go from here.
Update: You can read the entire article on Megan’s blog.