This week, La La’s Full Court Life spent time focusing on Po Johnson‘s plans for the future, as well as what’s made her the woman she is today. La’s fearless friend has gone through her fair share of hardships, and she’s sharing even more of her evolving relationship with her father with her friends at VH1.
Check out Po’s take on last night’s episode, as well as the difficulties that have come with getting to know her dad as an adult.
It’s really cool to watch Kiyan grow up so fast. He doesn’t know it yet, but he has a great support system…or maybe he does know it. La and Melo are doing a great job raising that kid. I learn a lot watching those two and their family grow, and I can’t help to want my own. Or maybe it’s deeper than that.
It’s hard to fill a void when you don’t acknowledge that there is one. I would assume it’s similar to someone facing addiction, and the first step to recovery is admitting he or she has a problem. Within the past couple of years I’ve been able to watch my life unfold with the public, and man oh man is it a bitch. But through this self realization, I can admit I have a problem, an addiction: it’s love… but from man I barely know.
Exposing my story was a decision I made with my family. I told my mom, “it’s a story that’s way too common in our society.” So common, that I became numb to my father not knowing my favorite color, favorite food, who my first boyfriend was, and the fact that he wasn’t there to intimidate him (although, I had plenty of brothers, cousins, and uncles to do so). All my friends were like me, so there was no issue or at least I thought there wasn’t one.
Ever since high school I found myself attracted to the first boy or girl who thought I was pretty, cool, or funny, running to whatever open arms would have me and not having anything to say in return other than what I thought he or she wanted to hear so they’d like me more. I remember thinking all the time “just like me so I can stop holding my breath.”