
This season, the VH1 Blog is lucky enough to have the participation of the Mob Wives cast who will be commenting on every episode of the show. This week, Renee Graziano wrote us an amazing recap of not only the episode but of her journey to rehab, some of the “awful” behavior she showed this week, and as she writes, she has kind words for everyone in the cast. Yup, even Carla. Read Renee’s take of Mob Wives episode four in her own words, and we’d like to say thank you, Renee, for sharing your story.
It was pretty hard to watch tonight’s episode from an outside point-of-view, but here it goes: The show kicks off with a “BARK” and a deafening “BANG.” “I’m witty, pretty and definitely sharper than a butter knife.” But, as the old saying goes, “If you’ve got nothing nice to say, then don’t say anything at all.” So, aside from a huge thank you to Big Ang and Drita for showing their support in my choice to going to rehab, I’m going to stay dead silent and not address the nail salon scene any further.

So, moving on to my awful and disgusting mouth on the morning of my leaving for rehab. I’m speechless and embarrassed at my behavior towards the one person who loves me unconditionally and supports me the most. Knowing that I’ll have to face my fears of addiction and demons due to all I have been through I was acting out based on that fear. And, although I’m 31 days clean, during that scene back in October, I’m dying to pop a pill to solve one of my many problems, or freeze my brain with cocaine; anything not to feel.
For the record, as I’m reading this back, it confirms that I won’t be getting a date any time in the next 20 years, so it’s back to pen pals and prison visits for me. I’ve got a warped sense of humor, but it helps get me by. Read more…